a moment to remember...

when u saw your family for the first time,

thats the moment to remember..

when u hear your child first laugh,

thats the moment to remember..

when u say goodbye to best friends for the last time,

thats the moment to remember..

when u know that your life is all that u always wanted,

that the moment you must remember.....

goodbye....

Selamat tinggal sayang ku... sungguh aku merinduimu, rupamu yang comel, bulu yang cantik... tiada lagi kenit di rumah ini... selamat tinggal buat selamanya..

sunyi...

sunyi terasa di ruang hati,

sunyi kerana tiada yang mengisi,

sunyi yang amat menyakiti,

sunyi yang sudah tidak tertahan lagi...

mengapa ku sunyi begini??

adakah ini perasaan ku sendiri?

atau hanya rasa rindu yang melebihi?

mengapa ini terjadi?

i'm in love!!

aaahhh... he's sooo deadly gorgeous ... hey i've got a new crush right now and he's so yi jung... or Kim Bum that plays as the F4 in Boys Before Flowers....

how thrilling it can be???

i'm sooooo happy that at last i've completed my project paper.. a lot of afford have put in there, so i hope it will be okay...

but not for long.. now i've got three more papers for da FINAL EXAM, i mean really my last exam for my degree... how time flies.... three years have past...

what am i going to do next??? hmm.. maybe i'll help my dad and dear bro eith their bussines. i really think about doing so.

so, one paper down and three more to go... the next one is on friday, next tuesday and the next monday after next monday.. what am i talking about huh???

anyway, just enjoying my evening here....

working hard..

right now, i'm working as hard as i can be... i want to complete my project paper and study for final.. tomorrow is my last class in ukm... oooohhh i just can't believe it... i'm graduating...

but i need to focus now... plus, i've got to cut my spending... it's time to spend as little as possible...

i want to go home.. i want my mum and dad....

i'm fine already...

It takes a lot of afford to hold on to a relationship.. And after a lot of suffering, now i'm happy again with him.. i love him so much... now, i really understand the feelings of being loved and loving someone.. i really hope that this relationship will last for long and the two of us can be together for the rest of our lives..

I'm quite busy right now.. with those assignments and project paper.. and the deadline is getting nearer everyday.. i've got the feelings that times flies a bit too fast these few weeks.. and now i'm in the 11th week for the semester.. 3 more weeks left.. AAAAAAAAAAAAAA... i can't believe it...

Now, i've got new problems... my car have to be fix. but i've got no money what so ever.. and the cost is RM800... hhuuuuwaaa.... i can't hold on much longer. i want my mum and dad... i miss you all... i want to be home right now... i want to see their faces right now.... oooohh.

>>>i miss my mummy and daddy and my debab<<<

Recently, i've got addicted to this korean drama Boys Before Flowers. It's the korean version of Hana Yori Dango or Meteor Garden in taiwan..

MY IMMORTAL

I'm so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childish fears. And if you have to leave. I wish that you would just leave. Because your presence still lingers here. And it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. And I've held your hand through all of these years. But you still have all of me. You used to captivate me by your resonating light . But now I'm bound by the life you left behind . Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me. These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you cried. I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream. I'd fight away all of your fears. And I've held your hand through all of these years. But you still have all of me. I've tried so hard to tell myself that you´re gone. But though you're still with me. I've been alone all along.

perlukah aku????

perlukah diri ini membuka langkah terlebih dahulu?
perlukah bibir ini mengucapkannya dahulu?
perlukah hati ini ditutup dahulu?
atau,
perlukah aku biar sahaja ia berlalu?

tolonglah wahai saudaraku...

aku mahu menyayangi dan disayangi,
aku mahu merasa diperlukan dan memerlukan,
aku mahu menyinta dan dicintai,
dan,
aku mahu menerima dan diterima.

tetapi...

dia... tidak mampu untuk memenuhinya,
perlukah aku meninggalkannya?
atau aku harus tunggu lebih lama lagi?
perlukah aku bersabar lagi?

perlukah aku pergi kepada si dia yang menunggu ku?
atau dia harus tunggu dahulu...?

aku bingung!!!!

hati ini letih, hati ini sedih, hati ini merintih....

adakah masih ada cinta untuknya?
adakah masih ada sayang untuknya?
atau sekadar emosi yang bercelaru???

aku sayang lagi padanya???
aku cinta lagi padanya???
apa dalam hati ini?
aku sendiri tidak memahaminya...

apa yang harus aku lakukan??????

masih mengharap...

aku masih mengharap...

mengharap agar dia akan lebih mengerti akan perasaanku,

mengharap agar dia akan cuba untuk mendekati aku,

mengharap agar dia cuba untuk menyayangiku,

mengharap agar dia lebih ambil tahu tentang diriku.

aku masih mengharap...

biarpun dia buat tidak tahu, ku harap suatu hari nanti dia akan berubah,

biarpun dia tak ambil kisah, ku harap suatu hari nanti dia akan kisah,

sudah hampir setahun berlalu, namun dia tetap begitu,

bila ditanya, ada sahaja jawapan yang diberikan,

dia tidak mahu berikan kepastian, hanya jawapan kosong yang menyakitkan hati.

ku harap agar hati ini akan terus bersabar, namun,

apakan daya, sabar manusia ada batasnya,

hati yang terasa susah untuk ditangani,

emosi yang tercalar juga sukar untuk dihilangkan.

aku masih mengharap....

mengapa???

mengapa? mengapa perlu kita mengejar orang yang berlari? mengapa perlu kita pergi kepada orang yang tidak sudi? mengapa hati ini sering dilukai oleh insan yang tak mengerti?

sudah cukup hati ini menahan rasa. sudah cukup hati ini terluka. sudah letih ketika melihat insan yang tidak mahu mengerti. sudah tiada lagi rasa untuk bersabar. mengapa? mengapa semua ini terjadi pada diriku?

tidak cukupkah apa yang ku korbankan? tidak ikhlaskah semua itu? mengapa harus ku lalui semua ini? mengapa menerima jika tidak mahu menjaganya? lebih baik biarkan sahaja ia menderita dahulu... tidak perlu menanggung duka seperti ini.

aku juga ingin gembira. aku juga ingin bahagia. tapi, mengapa begitu sukar untuk ku hadapinya? orang lain mudah sahaja bertemu kebahagiaan. tetapi aku??? sukarnya mahu mencapai kebahagiaan itu...

hatiku perit, hatiku sakit. jiwa ku terguris entah ke berapa kali??? aku sendiri tidak tahu. ku fikirkan aku sudah dapat menerimanya, tetapi, hakihatnya dia yang tidak mampu menerima diriku ini...

biarlah... biarkan ia berlalu pergi... moga ada hikmah disebalik yang berlaku... moga ada cahaya yang menanti di penghujung kegelapan ini... moga suatu hari akan ada insan yang mengerti diriku ini, yang faham akan hatiku ini dan akan menghargaiku sepenuh hati... ku harapkan moga dirimu bahagia selalu....

so tired and a bit deaf...

why? bcoz i've got back from the 'lapang sasar' so i'm a bit deaf at the moment. it's very annoying when you can't hear properly.. (i'm very gratefull with all the senses that i have now).. plus, the bus that we ride today got problems with it's air cond, so, we all got free sauna for the day. we have to sit for 2 hours in that bus...!!! what the %*&!@# ... so hot and so tired... but we manage to get back safe and sound..

but, i'm a bit disappointed with my result from m16 coz it was very bad... nearly everybody also felt it... but, what past is past.. so tomorrow will be the day that i do my work from dusk till dawn.. haha.. as if...

okay that's it for today.. i want my beauty sleep... hehehe... da....

i'm sooooo tired la...

what a week!!! I'm feeling so tired after 2 days camping. but it's not about physically tired but emotionally... those people that i have to face and the problems they have created made me so angry and upset at the same time. plus, because of those problems also i've hurt my best friend heart. i just can't stand the way those people used my friend as their tool for protesting and all. in the end my friend got hurt. it's so hurt to see her like that. it tore apart my heart. i just can't believe that those people can be so cruel to her. and it also wipe out all my happy feelings during that camp. luckily i got only a few months more to face them so i must be strong and let what by gone be by gone.... i'm sorry to you my friend.... :(

You are my everything..

When we first fell in love
I thought that nothing could compare
To the magical romance
That you and I had come to share.

But as time passed, feelings deepened,
And our closeness grew
The romance turned into
A real and lasting love with you.

You care for me in all the ways
I want and need so much.
I’ve felt your warmth and tenderness
With every word and touch.

I know I can depend on you
For support and honesty,
That patient understanding
That you always give to me.

There’s a special kind of happiness
That only love can bring,
And I’ve found that happiness with you...
You are my everything.

what The???

One man all by himself is nothing. Two people who belong together make a world. One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life; That word is love. Only those things are beautiful which are inspired by madness and written by reason. Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means. Presence is more than just being there. Put all excuses aside and remember this: YOU are capable. Relish love in your old age! Aged love is like aged wine; it becomes more satisfying, more refreshing, more valuable, more appreciated and more intoxicating! Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk. Smile at each other, smile at your wife, smile at your husband, smile at your children, smile at each other - it doesn't matter who it is - and that will help you to grow up in greater love for each other. So long as we love we serve; So long as we are loved by others, I would almost say that we are indispensable; And no one is useless while they have a friend.

What You Give You Get Back

What you give, you get back
As long as I can think I've been
Running to be free
There's not a place that
could have been too far
Had nothing but a bag of dreams
And this old guitar
A couple of songs to play for you an me
There's so much love inside of me
That wants to be released
I can't help it so I give it all away
What you give you get it back
So take my love just because it's all I have
Take my heart take my soul
I just never want it back
As long as I've been living
I've had music in my veins
I can't go on without it anymore
My suitcase is a wanderer

That takes me I believe
For a walk right across your heart
There's so much love inside of you
That wants to be released
And all you gotta do is let it go
What you give you get back
So take my love just because it's all I have
Take my heart take my soul
I just never want it back
Cause the love you give, is
the love you'll get
There's so much love inside of me
That wants to be released
I can't help it so I gave it all away
What you give you get back
So take my love just because it's all I have
What you give you get back
So take my love just because it's all I have
Take my heart take my soul
I just never want it back
Cause your love, your love is all I have
All I have
Love is all we have
All I have